Two of Swords Story
Hello again, friends and welcome back! For today’s post, I wanted to go a little more in-depth about yesterday’s card of the day.
You see, most of the time, when I pull a card for the purpose of writing a blog post, it’s just that – randomly selecting a card and then writing my thoughts about it.
Yesterday, though, when I pulled a card, I was doing it for myself as well. I was struggling with something, and pulled a card to help sort through my thoughts.
As I said earlier, I pulled a card with intention yesterday. Now, I do this often, for myself – when there’s something weighing on my mind, when I’m feeling uncertain or in need of guidance, I grab my tarot deck and do a quick read for myself. Sometimes, I do a full spread, but when I’m feeling really anxious, I only pull one card.
So, what was I so anxious about yesterday?
Most of you already know that I also write a dating and relationships blog, and if you’ve read any of my previous posts, you know that I’m happily in a relationship at the moment. Don’t worry, that’s still the case! But, my sadness yesterday did have to do with matters of the heart.
I have this ex – for the sake of this post, we’ll just refer to him as X – and we’ve remained in touch. In fact, I saw him recently to catch up over coffee. X and I didn’t necessarily end on great terms – if I’m being honest, he left me quite heartbroken. Nevertheless, I adopted a forgive and forget mindset with him and, when he re-entered my life, I wanted to let the past stay in the past and move ahead as a friend.
We went for coffee and he told me about how he’d been since our breakup, including his dating life. I was perfectly fine to hear about this, but afterwards, upon further reflection, I started to realize the full extent of his betrayal. I knew, of course, that he’d hurt me, but to find out that he might’ve hurt me more than I knew really stung.
I’d been going over and over in my mind, then, whether I wanted to ask him about this directly or not. On the one hand, I felt (and still feel, really) a masochistic curiosity – there’s some part of me that just has to know if it’s true. On the other hand, what good will it do to relive the pain he caused me?
Tarot Card Guidance
Yesterday, all of this was playing in my mind when I went to do my daily tarot drawing. I pulled a card with the intention of getting some personal guidance. The Two of Swords is what came up.
Ironically, this same card came up once before when I did a reading about X – back when we were dating, when I was feeling anxious over his intentions with me. At that time, it came up as part of a larger reading and I interpreted it as suggesting I show patience.
In retrospect, I can see that my interpretation was based more on my emotion. I wanted him to eventually commit to me, so I wanted to believe that if I were patient enough, it would eventually happen. (Spoiler alert – it didn’t.)
This time, though, the message was fairly clear – there was a betrayal, one in which I was completely ignorant of, one that I chose not to see at the time, and one that still hurts me to think about.
The 2 of Swords is all about tension, anxiety, and indecision – all of which is pretty spot on here. It also represents feeling as though there is no real good outcome. Once again, this is spot on.
My takeaway from this, then, was that when it comes to X, when it comes to this feeling of anger and sadness I have towards him, still, it’s not going to be resolved anytime soon. If I ask him about it, it won’t do me any good. Even not asking, though, will leave me feeling hurt (because, really, I already know the answers.)
On the plus side, though – it’s pretty cool when you see just how accurate Tarot can be!
Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts in the comments below.